you know that bit people said about being drunk? the part where they will tell lame jokes and then accidentally spill out their deepest and most probably darkest secrets and then start weeping and then barfing all over the place? okay maybe not barfing. the point is, being drunk makes you look really disgusting it's embarassing.

i've been through that phase.

i ended up knowing things i shouldn't know. i ended up knowing things that left a big hole in my heart. i ended up trying to live with it till the end of time.

i still couldn't accept the fact that i fell down and bruised myself so badly that even when i had those stitches it didn't really help. that nothing you and i could do to heal.

i gave up and each and everytime i forgot that i wasn't alone; that i have a faithful friend who will always nudge my heart and offer a helping hand silently, the friend i had, i have and will always have.

but i turned away because i was selfish. i wanted more.

i've always wanted more.

life's too short for me to satisfy you. life's too short for me to find love with you. life's too short for me to wait.

but life's never too short to love the Lord.

i'll laugh again one day. just you wait.